For the last many years I've been on a quest to improve myself as much as possible. I have been trying to get into a good frame of mind and eliminate in myself those habits or traits which I do not find desirable. I've also been known to ask for constructive criticism from friends, because you can never see yourself as objectively as others. I think I've made a lot of progress, and as a result, I'm quite happy with the person I am. Quite happy in all respects save one, that is - I have been very unhappy with my physical self for quite awhile now.

As is typical of too many American females, my weight has fluctuated a lot over the years. When I was unemployed couple of years ago I used my copious free time to cook healthy meals and exercise regularly. As a result, I was in great shape and felt wonderful. Then I began the Job That Sucked Greatly. I was angry and depressed because I had to settle for a job I hated in order to pay the bills, and I began eating too much to console myself. Since I suddenly had much less free time, I also stopped going to the gym; consequentially, I gained twenty pounds and became out shape.

Anyone who has struggled with their weight knows the cycle - you're depressed about your body image so you eat which makes you gain weight which makes you more depressed so you eat. It really sucks, and it's a very difficult cycle to break. Even though it's been six months since I ditched the Job That Sucked Greatly it has taken me this long to get into the correct mental state to do something about it. A week ago Sunday I decided it was time, and since then I've been sticking to my resolution.

I've cut all hydrogenated fats, white flour and refined sugar from my diet, and I've gone walking (the first regular exercise I've had in two years!) six out of the past seven days. Weekdays I walk the three mile round trip to & from school, and yesterday I walked to several stores to do my shopping. I've only got two more weeks of school, so I'm also planning to rejoin a gym to continue and improve on my exercise regime.

I need to set short, attainable goals for myself, so my current goal is just to make it until the next semester starts in mid-August, then I'll set a new one.