Well, I killed my first sea lion today.

My supervisor and her assistant took the day off today, so I was in charge. When I first got to work there was an animal seizuring. I misunderstood the vet's instructions and instead of giving the animal 5 mg of Lorazepam, an anti-seizure medication, I gave 5 cc - which is 20 mg. An hour or two later I found the animal dead.

The bad news is: the animal died. The good news is: 1) the animal was most likely going to be euthanized anyway, 2) upon necropsy it was revealed he had severe pneumonia and wouldn't have survived; the seizures were likely agonal (death) throes, 3) everyone makes a mistake eventually and at least mine wasn't bad, considering, and 4) I will now never forget the correct dosage for that drug.

So yeah, I feel bad that I messed up, but I'm otherwise doing fine. You can't really help feeling bad when something like that happens even though everyone else was telling me, "Don't worry about it." Hopefully it will never happen again.